I don’t even know where to start nor do I have all the words for my thoughts and feelings. I have felt this weird obligation that I need to explain my decisions to everyone, to make them see that I am not crazy or weak or so I don’t have to hear the negative thoughts or second guessing. When it comes down to it I know that our decisions don’t have to make sense to anyone but me and Eric. Ok I’ll be honest, sometimes those decisions don’t even make sense to me but rather I know it’s the right move. And luckily we have been very blessed with overly supportive friends and family. However, for journaling purposes and not to have to explain it to people wondering here are the details.

Over a year ago we had this crazy ambition to try full-time RV living and traveling. I saw us traveling around the whole United States in our “made to feel like home” fifth wheel and life would be grand and we would grow to be close and dependent on each other like never before. Daydreams at it’s finest, am I right? Truth is, while we only made it to 4 states the last couple of months have been pretty amazing. It really has been everything I excepted and more and will be a time in our lives I will never forget. I like to picture the scenario of us one day looking back and saying while laughing, “Remember when we sold all our stuff and tried to be nomads for a hot second?” The question still stands though, if we loved it so much why did we stop? It was really a mixture of things which I could write a novel about and explain but it seems irrelevant. What it comes down to is that I would encourage someone wanting to try this lifestyle out to go for it hands down with some add insights; however, for our family it’s time to move on.

When I find myself feeling sad our time on this specific adventure is coming to close, when I feel slightly embarrassed like we failed and not seeming cut out for what so many others are doing I remind myself that we accomplished what we set out to do. We took those brave and daunting steps that gave us memories most people never get to experience and which put us on the path to our next adventure.

Looking back I can see how much we have all grown from just a short year ago. We have learned so much about a lot of things. To list a few things, Eric and I now know a lot of the ins and outs of RV’s. I also know that having the number of good RV repair man on hand is key and something we never had privy to. We now know Eric’s breaking point to feel anxiety. The girls have finally learned the skill of flushing a toilet and turning off lights and I have been able to relearn what possessive nouns, idioms and stanzas are among many other things pertaining to the English language. (Lets overlook the fact that most of my posts still include many grammar errors and run-on sentences.)

So onto this “new” adventure, we are so excited to be living by my sister. We’re exactly 8 minutes away. We have spent years posing the long wished for thought to each other, “I wish we lived closer!” Dreams are coming true! I’ll admit it wasn’t our initial plan traveling to Oregon and end up staying but I can’t help but think that it was the Lord’s way of setting us up to make this move happen. Do I wish it could have been a little expensive and less stressful way? Yes, yes I do. But here we are regardless. We’re now on the journey of creating a new life, in a new place, with new people. In a way it’s kind of what we were already doing except you can’t feel every single move a person makes in the next room and our oven is a little bigger.